Pictures of You

“I was looking at the photographs and I started thinking that there was a time when these weren’t memories.” ~ Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Day 403.

Death has been the theme for me this past month with my uncle passing away last week and the 21st death anniversary of my sister on March 31.

Because of the lockdown last year, I was not able to visit my sister’s grave.  I had been dreaming about her recently and I took it as a sign that it was time to make the trek down to Maryland to visit her.

St. Rose of Lima Church | Gaithersburg, Maryland

She is in a nice resting place.  The grounds are well kept, and she is located underneath a tree next to the church.  I sat with her awhile and told her that I missed her.  I apologized for not visiting more often, but I know that she knows that she is always in my heart.  

She died in 2000, so camera phones were not yet widely available, I don’t think.  It was not how it is these days, with a camera readily available at your fingertips.  These days, people take photos of everything, and I am grateful for the technology and to have the opportunity to document and immortalize important events in my life with videos and photographs.

I wish I had taken more photos with my sister.  I don’t have nearly enough.  All I really have are my memories, and those sadly tend to fade with time.  

The last picture I ever took with my sister
“There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you.”
~ The Cure, Pictures of You