“Love blurs your vision; but after it recedes, you can see more clearly than ever. It’s like the tide going out, revealing whatever’s been thrown away and sunk: broken bottles, old gloves, rusting pop cans, nibbled fishbodies, bones. This is the kind of thing you see if you sit in the darkness with open eyes, not knowing the future. The ruin you’ve made.” ~ Margaret Atwood, Cat’s Eye
I’ve been dreaming about sight lately. I know that most of you do not believe that dreams mean anything, but there still must be some reason as to why there is a central theme to my dreams as of late.
The other night, I dreamt that I borrowed GP’s car. I was driving his car at night, and the roads were only dimly lit by the street lights. I was driving on a curvy and winding road. I had driven all night, and somehow made it my to destination by the morning. As I pulled his car into the driveway, an unknown man yells from his car, “Hey, your lights are off. You’ve been driving all night with no lights on.”
GP was there to greet my arrival. He promptly reprimanded me for driving his car with limited visibility.
The following night I dreamt that I had taken out my contacts to clean them. When I put them back in, my left eye started to hurt, so I took it back out. I look at my left contact, and it is clearly ripped. I debate whether I should put it back in because I am nearly blind without contacts or if I should instead just take out both contacts and walk around blindly. Wearing eyeglasses were not an option in my dream. I finally opted to take out both contacts and walk around blindly.
In both dreams, the theme is that I have limited visibility. Although I am not a firm believer that dreams foretell the future or give us any real insight to our subconscious mind, I do believe that dreams may mirror some of the fears and worries that we carry in our minds during our waking moments. Apparently, I seem to fear that I am going through life blindly but am willing to endure pain just so I can get to my final destination, wherever that may be.