“It would be much better if I could only stop thinking. Thoughts are the dullest things. Duller than flesh. They stretch out and there’s no end to them and they leave a funny taste in the mouth. Then there are words, inside the thoughts, unfinished words, a sketchy sentence which constantly returns … It goes, it goes … and there’s no end to it. It’s worse than the rest because I feel responsible and have complicity in it. For example, this sort of painful rumination: I exist, I am the one who keeps it up. I.” ~ Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea
I have about a dozen unfinished (and unpublished) entries on here. I sign in quite often, write a few paragraphs, but then inevitably become distracted, get called away, or otherwise become unavailable (mentally and physically) to complete my thoughts.
A few weeks ago I started to write about MJ, a friend with whom I was enamored but inexplicably never took an interest to me. I contacted him via text message after over a decade of no contact. He has not changed. He is still not interested in me.
Then I wrote another entry, also unfinished, about a book that I had borrowed at the library: A Gentleman in Moscow, by Amor Towles.
I had almost finished reading it, but the book was due back at the library with no opportunity to extend the loan because another patron had already requested it. Apparently it is a popular book, and there is no mystery why. It is a great read that sweeps you up and back to a time of wealth and classic beauty. Would you believe that the book is in such high demand that I am on a waiting list to borrow it again? I might just buy the book as it is worthy of any book collection. Plus, I am quite anxious to find out how the story ends.
I also have an enormous amount of photos to upload. I finally sucked it up and bought a DSLR camera. Now that I have been tinkering around with it, the photos I take with my phone are no longer adequate. The difference in quality is just too apparent.
Plus, I was in Italy recently. Venice, no less. I took over a thousand photos from my one week holiday. I’ll be uploading those photos from my camera soon, and hopefully will get a chance to share them here.