“Water that never moves.” I say to him. “It’s fine for a little while. You can drink from it and it’ll sustain you. But if it sits too long it goes bad. It grows stale. It becomes toxic.” I shake my head. “I need waves. I need waterfalls. I want rushing currents.” ~ Tahereh Mafi, Ignite Me
Water that has been left out for too long becomes foul and stale. Similarly, people who are stagnant do not expand their horizons and can become bitter and depressed.
Such is the case for me. The last holiday trip I took was in November of 2014 when G and I went to Costa Rica. We are now well into 2016, and I have yet to even plan some kind of meaningful vacation.
The main issues are time and money, as it is for a lot of people. Although 2015 was a much better year financially than the prior year, I am still struggling to recover from when I lost my job at the end of 2014. The last few months I have been juggling one full time job, and two side consulting gigs, and so time has been limited. As for the money, there just never seems to be enough, no matter how much I work. I always wonder how other people seem to live normally, while I work 60+ hours a week and still struggle to make every end meet.
I am on auto-pilot, and there hasn’t been much room for detour. A typical day: Wake up, shower, rush to drop off G at school to make the train, get to the office, work all day, rush back home in the evening to pick up G from school, spend time with G, make dinner, prepare meals for the next day, shower, go to bed, lather, rinse and repeat.
I am tired and depressed and desperately need to be thrown off this current ride.
09.02.2016 | Washington Square Park